Camming Down the Rabbit Hole Ch. 07

Today was going to be another productive day, dressing in my fitness outfit I followed another of the exercise DVD sessions followed by some stretching yoga. I would leave the running for tomorrow as I felt the need to practice walking in those shoes some more, I really wanted to impress Biggie with how well I’d taken to them, I had learnt that the more confidence I had on screen the more tokens I received, so the morning spent striding backwards and forwards would only help things.

After about 20 minutes I had really got the hang of them, I followed a few more YouTube tutorials on feet position and how to exaggerate the hip swing, all of which helped to make me feel more at ease and to look more natural. Despite their original comfort after a while they became a little painful so I took a rest, browsing on my phone I had the idea that I should buy some more modest heels which would be more comfortable, something that I could wear down to the shops so that when I put these on it wouldn’t be such a leap.

I then realised that since most of the shops were now open as usual, I could go today, I did need to pick up some more makeup anyway as all the practice had used up a lot of what I had. I checked my bank balance and realised that I was actually much better off that I though, the combination of furlough pay and revenue from the broadcasts meant I not only was there plenty in my main account but I could put more into my savings. I realised that even if I did lose my job, I could probably cover the rent and bills with money from the shows, however that would leave me nothing for food or emergencies.

Taking stock of my finances I decided it was time for a little TLC for myself, new shoes for sure, I could go to a dedicated makeup shop instead of the one in the big supermarket, maybe a bite to eat and something to drink while I was at it. It was quite liberating to not feel the pressure of having to be paranoid about money, although I couldn’t relax entirely my inevitable redundancy would still leave me living on the bare minimum.